I started learning the organ from a great organ instructor a few months ago, under his help, I have been making a huge progress, not only in playing the organ but also in the general understanding of music.
However, I have been going through a lot of pain trying to find some places where I can get some practice.
Currently, the only place in Jersey City where I can practice is Our Lady of Mercy, However, the only time I am allowed to practice there is Saturday afternoon, but that is also the time when I am taking classes from my instructor, and recently I have been assisting him in the service during Saturday Vigil in his church, which is in Larchmont NY, and that makes it impossible for me to practice in Our Lady of Mercey.
The only other places where I can practice is St Mary's church in Auburn NY, which is 5 hours traveling each way, which makes it even more unpractical to practice in a regular basis, although I do go there some times, but because I have school and job five days a week here in New Jersey, and it's a very high cost to go back and forth Auburn, I could rarely visit there.
My teacher's church is also at least 2 hours away in Larchmont, and I don't know if they are willing to let me practice there other time then when I am taking lessons.
I have been trying to contact many many churches in Jersey City area, including Our Lady of Carmel, St Anthony of Padua, Holy Rosary church, St Michael, and many many others, but the problem is, first of all most of the time the church's email system seems to be very inefficient, it's hard to get a direct contact with the music director, and the pastor simply don't reply my email, although I am sure that my requesting emails are nice and humble enough.
Second of all it seems most churches in Jersey City area and New York City area are closed all the time, they don't open the door unless it's the service hour, so they are not willing to have anybody in their church when they are not having the event, and surely it's impossible to practice when there is a event.
And also some churches directly tells me that "because of security reasons and liability reasons", they "do not allow anyone to practice anything at any time", such as St Anthony of Padua and Our Lady of Carmel.
I guess the time when I have time for practicing is kind of tricky too. Because I have school and work, I am usually not free during the day time, the only time that I can practice is either after 4:30pm in the evening or before 8:30am in the morning, or, weekends (such as Sunday after the mass or Saturday before the evening mass).
In fact, not only I couldn't find any place to practice the organ, I have hard time trying to practice Anything.
My instructor told me that I could just practice on the piano, in order to get fluent with the manual, and then add the pedal later when I have a chance. However, due to my living situation, I don't have a piano. It's shameful to say this but my budget is very very tight, and I also don't have a steady place to live.
Just last week I found a cafe near my school which has a piano. For a while I was very very happy, because I thought I could spend time practicing there, and after a week's practice I have actually accomplished a lot. However, just today, the staff in the cafe told me that they are NOT OK with me practicing there every day any more, although I have been doing it for only one hour every morning, they mentioned that it's a cafe not a rehearsal room, they don't want to let people use their piano too much.
I really feel very very heart broken, I just feel that I really love music very much and I really want to learn well, but I couldn't, I feel helpless and weak like a bird with wounded wings.
I think maybe I can get a cheap electric keyboard and practice on that. I hope it would help, although then my roommates might complain (I hope not).
However, the pedal is important to practice too, I can't find anyway to practice the pedal without doing it on the organ.
Every day I have to remind myself that I should be satisfied because I am already doing better than what I expected, because at first I thought I would be happy even if I have only one chance in my life to touch the organ, now, I have already touched it many times, and I have already learned to play some part of my favorite pieces. However, the more I love one thing, the stronger the desire of doing it well. It hurts me to think that I probably would never be able to do it, no matter I have talent or not, no matter I have passion or not.
Last but not least, to my great honor, an organist of a Latin Mass choir in which I sing some times offered to let me substitute him this summer, for about two months, because he is going away for Italy. I am more than happy to do that for him. However, the Latin Mass Choir and it's pastor do not have their own church. Even the organist himself doesn't have a place to practice, because the convent lock up the door whenever the mass is over. Right now I am very worried about it, because if I couldn't practice anything, how can I play the mass well? I don't want to disappoint the choir nor mess up the service.
If you guys have any information about where I can possibly practice, for even just one time a week, or any suggestions on how to find a church that would probably allow me, either in New Jersey or in New York, please let me know. I really appreciate!
However, I have been going through a lot of pain trying to find some places where I can get some practice.
Currently, the only place in Jersey City where I can practice is Our Lady of Mercy, However, the only time I am allowed to practice there is Saturday afternoon, but that is also the time when I am taking classes from my instructor, and recently I have been assisting him in the service during Saturday Vigil in his church, which is in Larchmont NY, and that makes it impossible for me to practice in Our Lady of Mercey.
The only other places where I can practice is St Mary's church in Auburn NY, which is 5 hours traveling each way, which makes it even more unpractical to practice in a regular basis, although I do go there some times, but because I have school and job five days a week here in New Jersey, and it's a very high cost to go back and forth Auburn, I could rarely visit there.
My teacher's church is also at least 2 hours away in Larchmont, and I don't know if they are willing to let me practice there other time then when I am taking lessons.
I have been trying to contact many many churches in Jersey City area, including Our Lady of Carmel, St Anthony of Padua, Holy Rosary church, St Michael, and many many others, but the problem is, first of all most of the time the church's email system seems to be very inefficient, it's hard to get a direct contact with the music director, and the pastor simply don't reply my email, although I am sure that my requesting emails are nice and humble enough.
Second of all it seems most churches in Jersey City area and New York City area are closed all the time, they don't open the door unless it's the service hour, so they are not willing to have anybody in their church when they are not having the event, and surely it's impossible to practice when there is a event.
And also some churches directly tells me that "because of security reasons and liability reasons", they "do not allow anyone to practice anything at any time", such as St Anthony of Padua and Our Lady of Carmel.
I guess the time when I have time for practicing is kind of tricky too. Because I have school and work, I am usually not free during the day time, the only time that I can practice is either after 4:30pm in the evening or before 8:30am in the morning, or, weekends (such as Sunday after the mass or Saturday before the evening mass).
In fact, not only I couldn't find any place to practice the organ, I have hard time trying to practice Anything.
My instructor told me that I could just practice on the piano, in order to get fluent with the manual, and then add the pedal later when I have a chance. However, due to my living situation, I don't have a piano. It's shameful to say this but my budget is very very tight, and I also don't have a steady place to live.
Just last week I found a cafe near my school which has a piano. For a while I was very very happy, because I thought I could spend time practicing there, and after a week's practice I have actually accomplished a lot. However, just today, the staff in the cafe told me that they are NOT OK with me practicing there every day any more, although I have been doing it for only one hour every morning, they mentioned that it's a cafe not a rehearsal room, they don't want to let people use their piano too much.
I really feel very very heart broken, I just feel that I really love music very much and I really want to learn well, but I couldn't, I feel helpless and weak like a bird with wounded wings.
I think maybe I can get a cheap electric keyboard and practice on that. I hope it would help, although then my roommates might complain (I hope not).
However, the pedal is important to practice too, I can't find anyway to practice the pedal without doing it on the organ.
Every day I have to remind myself that I should be satisfied because I am already doing better than what I expected, because at first I thought I would be happy even if I have only one chance in my life to touch the organ, now, I have already touched it many times, and I have already learned to play some part of my favorite pieces. However, the more I love one thing, the stronger the desire of doing it well. It hurts me to think that I probably would never be able to do it, no matter I have talent or not, no matter I have passion or not.
Last but not least, to my great honor, an organist of a Latin Mass choir in which I sing some times offered to let me substitute him this summer, for about two months, because he is going away for Italy. I am more than happy to do that for him. However, the Latin Mass Choir and it's pastor do not have their own church. Even the organist himself doesn't have a place to practice, because the convent lock up the door whenever the mass is over. Right now I am very worried about it, because if I couldn't practice anything, how can I play the mass well? I don't want to disappoint the choir nor mess up the service.
If you guys have any information about where I can possibly practice, for even just one time a week, or any suggestions on how to find a church that would probably allow me, either in New Jersey or in New York, please let me know. I really appreciate!
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